Freedom is a powerful drug, and it’s really hard to quit once you’re on it. The taste of freedom is intoxicating, and for freedom, you find yourself willing to let go of everything that once seemed important. When you don’t take things seriously, you start letting go of them just as easily. You go through life playfully, not holding on to anything. At some point, you taste the sweet flavour of freedom again, and you can’t stop anymore. It’s like a drug that you don’t consume — it consumes you. The freedom you once sought now defines every step you take.
When I first started travelling, it was hard for me to leave home. I was scared, and every time I had a trip coming up, my knees would shake. There were so many emotions — a whole adventure ahead! But the more often you travel, the fewer emotions and fears you have. And here’s my typical Monday, finding myself thousands of kilometres away from home. Now, I’m a global drifter, wandering from country to country. It’s all exciting and cool when travelling becomes your routine, but here’s the issue: you become so unattached that…
You can no longer settle anywhere. You find that settling down starts to feel restrictive, as if the walls are closing in on you, pushing you back into the uncertainty of the road. For freedom, you run again, unable to stay still. Every place where you try to connect begins to weigh on you. And so, you’re on the run again. You’d like a home, that feeling when things are in their place in the closet, and your beloved cat is nearby… But somehow, it’s just not coming together.
That’s the tragicomedy: the freedom you craved is such a strong drug, and it’s incredibly hard to get off it later. The taste of freedom lingers, and it keeps you moving, never fully settling.
Do you know those players in life who never let an opportunity — or a passing romance — slip by, yet are incapable of building true, deep relationships? Skimming the surface, but never going deep. They never have the strength or patience to build something real, meaningful, and genuine.
And so, this game of changing countries, changing people, or jobs, playing with businesses or resources, when you taste freedom in some area, you can’t stop anymore. The freedom pulls you in deeper each time.
You’ll ask me, what’s so bad about it? Because in the end, a life lived only at the surface is a life never truly lived at all.
